I’m not entirely a cuckold, and I’m not entirely a stag.

During the time my girlfriend/wife and I have been in this lifestyle, I’ve developed a taste for a spectrum of things that range from stag to cuckold.

At the beginning, it all started with just wanting to share my girlfriend as a man confident in himself and in his relationship. This helped a lot in making what was once a fantasy come true, but as experiences started happening, I also began enjoying the comparisons: “Who has the bigger cock, him or me?” “Who fucked you better, him or me?” “Who’s better, him or me?” I liked knowing she was with men who were better than me, who fucked her better, who made her cum more. Little by little she understood this, and I didn’t have to ask anymore—she would tell me how much she enjoyed the size of her new conquest’s cock. Then it wasn’t just about comparison; I started to enjoy knowing that I wasn’t the biggest, that I wasn’t the best. I started liking that little bit of humiliation in knowing the man she was with was better than me. She also understood this change and adapted to it. She knows what to say and when to say it to drive me crazy.

Then I wanted to taste her—not her lips with the flavor of the cock she had sucked hours before, but her used pussy, tasting of condom, sweat, and fluids. I liked the idea of her making me go down on her so her pussy could rest after being roughly fucked for hours by a man who had used her. Then came denial. She was quite surprised by this new change because from the beginning, a fundamental part of our arrangement was that I had to be with her as soon as possible after she fucked another man, to reclaim her as mine. So why now did I want her to tell me I couldn’t fuck her? I loved the power dynamic it created. I’m definitely more submissive than dominant, but more than anything, I wanted her to be totally dominant with me, to decide what I could or couldn’t do, how and when. Finally, I found the definition and the reason for all this: I’ll be whatever she wants me to be. More importantly, I’ll do whatever she wants me to do, because she’s the one in control and whatever gets her wet, gets me hard too.

So it’s not always the same, not always identical. Depending on the experience she has with each man, that’s the experience we have as a couple. Sometimes I share my girlfriend so another man can enjoy her. Sometimes she just needs a man to fuck her in a way I can’t. Sometimes I reclaim her after she’s been with someone else. Sometimes I’m not allowed to fuck her after she’s had a superior cock inside her.

Sometimes I’m a stag, sometimes I’m a cuckold.